We are just full of unusual days, today being no exception. Nate drove down to Miami for the day to number cases, while X and I went down to the splashpad for a fun morning with our Mom's group. Xander has been in love with water for the last week, even attacking us with the hose during an impromptu car washing. But, today was cloudy and even a bit chilly. He didn't last long, whimpering for the car. 30 minutes later... he was still awake and stayed that way until 4pm when he suddenly fell asleep. I have no doubt I am now in for a late night!
Saturday we popped down to Animal Kingdom and had a really great day full of drumming and gorilla's, I'm starting to think X has a deep and true love of animals. His love of his dog, Inca, and the cats were natural since he spends every day with them... but then his adoration of Bolt came along... and now he seems to want to hug, kiss, and observe with delight every animal (real or fake) that comes into his sight. I think Animal Kingdom is going to be seeing a lot of us this summer!
Aside from my adorable child, our unusual days have mostly been concentrated around the ever evolving state of our 'new' lives. This is the kind of stuff I would normally NEVER write about, but our therapist has pointed out to me that I need to learn to share more... so while it may be sloppy from time to time, or awkward, or out of the blue, I am using this blog as ONE of my new ways of sharing information and letting the hard times have as much time in the spotlight as the good. I am proud of Nate for finding the courage to finally be his own person, but it is a very hard journey involving healing very old wounds, coming to terms with the fact that you cannot always get what you expect, the past is painful, but it is in the past, and that you are in charge of your own future. I say this because as his wife I have to go along on the journey by proxy, so when he has a hard couple of weeks so do I.
As tends to happen when you flip your life around, there are big ups and huge downs. The last two weeks were huge downs. It seems to be the way of learning new things. Each time Xander is about to learn something new he seems to revert back to old ways of doing things. Crawling more before he took his first steps, crying more before he suddenly learns a bunch of new words. And so it was this way with Nate, falling back on bad habits of video games, not communicating his troubles... but we were rewarded with a great breakthrough. And while I still want to give a few people a piece of my mind, I am greatful to be in a better place than we were a few weeks ago.
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